Change is something that is generally hard for me to accept. I am a creature of habbit, so to speak. Moving to Utah from Idaho took a lot of courage. For the first little while, I didn’t really have friends. I was pregnant, insecure, and not ready to be completely isolated from my family. I would walk outside, and be so filled with anxiety that it was hard to function. I have an ESA, and if I didn’t have him, I probably wouldn’t have left the apartment.
However, moving to Utah has turned out to be a great experience, especially once I got a job. For starters, the weather! It is always warm here, which makes summers long if you don’t have an air conditioner. I love all the sunshine though! It is so nice to be able to go for a walk in the spring time and not be too hot. And in the winter, where we live, we don’t get too much snow. Just enough to give us and white Christmas.
After a little while, Jon and I met some amazing people who we now call family! A co-worker of ours, Jessica, wanted to hang out so badly. At first, I was afraid that it was out of pitty, but eventually I decided to take her up on her offer. That is something that I will not regret. Not ever. She has become one of my best friends, and her family has become family to us.
We have an amazing employer who has been great at scheduling Jon and I, so that we don’t have to pay for child care. We have lived in one not so great place, but now live in a wonderful complex and ward.
While living in Utah has been fun, it has presented us with all sorts of new challenges. Such as finding someone to watch Jackson while we go to the temple, or paying rent (because let’s be honest, housing here is ridiculous!) Working has been difficult, especially with monthly trips to Idaho for Jon’s jaw. It has been hard not having family close, and school has been tough on Jon, with our support system being four hours away. Many times, Jon would be struggling to do homework, and watch Jackson while I was at work. And if you read my previous post, you will know that things haven’t been super great as far as my schooling goes either.
With everything that happened, and with everything being so difficult without family close, Jon and I have made the decision to move back to Idaho! We will be moving in about a month, and we are so excited!! I will say that at first, I was super sad. Sad to leave all the friends we have made, and sad to leave the security that we have found. One of my needs, so to speak, is security. And while moving from Idaho to Utah took that away briefly, I was able to regain my sense of security. However, in light of recent events, my security has been taken. I am afraid to go to stores, for fear I will run into former class mates or teachers.
Now that we don’t really have any permanent ties to Utah, Jon and I are going a little stir crazy! Just the other night I told Jon that I just wanted to pack up now and leave and he told me he had been thinking the same thing! We are both just anxious to have this whole thing put behind us, and to move forward.
We are going to miss all the amazing friends we have made in Utah, but we are so excited for Jackson to be closer to his grandparents, aunts, and uncles. And of course we will be back to visit our dear friends. We have met so many life changing people here, we couldn’t leave and not come back to visit! Jon and I are so gratefull for the wonderful opportunity we have had to live in the Beehive state, but for right now, our home is the Gem state.
We are so thankful for the lessons we have learned and experiences we have had while living in Utah!